sorrow made you

sorrow made you


sorrow made you


sorrow made you


in the bottom of the dark dead sea


sorrow made you


sorrow made you


sorrow made you


in the maze without end


why do you still breathe?

Tuesday afternoon, no one cares.

With Alice Nine in the speakers :3




Today's shou ♡

talking about their new single last year~

I think everyone alternates between feeling like “I can do it!” and “It’s impossible!” while working toward a goal of a dream.

But then I also think,
if you can’t even believe in yourself, then who’s going to believe in you?
Since I realized the importance of making efforts to believe in yourself,

I think I became able to face these songs too without losing focus.

By all means, please let your hearts be touched.

This is one of the things he have said that really stuck in my head.
and I don't know how many times a part of me wanted to give up, 
then I hear him say that in my head and I keep going.   

To those who even care, I will make it.

It's a sad day. It's the end, the end of the time of d'espairsray.

I'm in shock.


With their Yokohama performance last year on December 30th at Yokohama BLITZ D'espairsRay had been going on a break to support the healing of vocalist HIZUMI's throat condition.

As of today, June 15th 2011, D'espairsRay have announced their immediate disbanding which has become the final result of talks between staff and members and been announced on the official homepage.
From MJP+

To cure my throat during hiatus, I had tried all sorts of treatments such as medical care,

acupuncture, physical therapy, Qigong etc.

However, under a situation where there is no good prospect for recovering, we had much discussion and

we came up with the conclusion that we'd rather disband than we fade out without any activities.

Please forgive us for betraying the expectations of our fans looking forward to our comeback.

Unfortunately, it's not possible to do final performance, but we would like to show our gratitude

to you by different ways.

Though I've met lots of people and experienced good and bad things after we formed this band,

there is no useless experience.

I thank all our fans who have loved us for 11 years.

HIZUMI

The dream of D'espairsRay we drew has to be given up halfway through.

I am so sorry for the sudden announcement to everyone who has believed we would return.

In this situation that it's unable to do a final gig, please understand to end like this

without telling our feelings to you.

I'm proud of the bond between you and D'espairsRay which will never change.

I'll go on to fill the empty space in my heart little by little and to meet you again with a smile.

To all our fans who have loved us, thank you.

Thank you so much.

Karyu

I'm so sorry for the sudden announcement.

Thinking back now, I promised everyone that we would come back in the bus during fan club trip before hiatus.

In the interviews and various writings, I also promised we would meet again.

So sorry we couldn't keep our promise, everyone.

However, this is a positive decision that all 4 members of D'espairsRay took after deep consideration,

so I ask for your kind understandings.

Now the situation still remains the same before hiatus, so we would disband without final tour or final gig.

As a result, there might be some discussion about whether it is good or bad not to do final gig,

but we judged it was impossible to do it with the best quality of our music which we had made as D'espairsRay

for ten years with all of you, so we decided to bring an end without any concerts.

Personally, I haven't painted a vision of the future yet, but I'll keep facing forward and look back a little bit.

Thinking of the days in which I can see your smile, I'll think what I can do myself from now on.

To the most passionate staffs who have supported us all the time,

To all the best "MANIA" who have always believed and loved us,

Thank you so much.

ZERO

After the announcement of hiatus, I think both every MANIA"and we might spend every day awaiting our comeback.

However, I'm afraid we came to this definitive conclusion.

I'm so sorry to everyone waiting for our returning.

Although we'd continued our musical activities together for over ten years pointing in the same direction,

the feeling is beyond words to bring an end for both ourselves and every "MANIA".

Because it's our treasure for a lifetime.

As you know, I apologize you it's unable to do a final concert because of such circumstances.

D'espairsRay will stay the best band in the world which will be long remembered by everybody even if it disbands.

Feeling proud that I had played as a drummer of this band and also proud of our "MANIA",

I'll spend the rest of my life. I'll live with a positive attitude.

Also all 4 members of D'espairsRay are going to stay the same as before, having a party and celebrating our birthday,

so don't worry!!

It's often said that the reason for disbanding might be due to discord, but it's NOT!

I would like to thank all the "MANIA" and all the people who have followed and supported us.

TSUKASA

From their blog



Hizumi... T__T
He's not getting better.

It must be the worst ever.
I feel so bad for him..

I wrote this in september when they came out and said he was ill.

You.. got to be freaking kidding me.

Stupid, stupid, stuuuuupid japanese people.. I'm going crazy!

D'espairsRay just started their four month long world tour and NOW they're saying Hizumi is sick and they will take a break in order for him to get the proper treatment. 

After the tour. Of course. What the hell!!!

He's been sick for over a year.

Just like Jui. It doesn't sound as serious.. but still.

Argh, you make me cry.
Ther're putting themselves through so much..
HIZUMI BAKA!!!!Get well soon.




I... I don't even know what to say. 


They are one of the first bands that drew me into j-rock in the first place.


They have always been there. 


I'm so grateful for all the music they made. 


I'm so grateful for all the times they've cheered me up. 




Thank you. 
T___T

Nostalgia

I wonder why I feel so nostalgic lately..

Probably the summertime.. it does that to me. argh

Alice Nine's first pv.
Aaahhhrgh I mean.
Is it really possible for a songs to be so emotional or is it in one's head?
I already know the answer.. but still. I wonder.
If I could I would erase my memories and start to listen to the music I like today all over again and see how it felt. Although I remember exactly how it felt when we first started listening to it.. it's just so much more emotional now.

Hime Ichigo is a band that persistently hangs on to my brain nowadays.
Humhum. I miss them alot. Suzuyaa!
Cozy cozy Suzuya.
He still hangs around Ameba though.. I'm really happy for that. ^-^

♡

Dogs~

two wet dogs.. omnomnom

eh?! XDD hahaha, she always does this and Elli got it on picture!

cuties!

:3

their buddy Elton. :) crowded in the shadow

It was so much fun at the three days, even though it was very tiring to say the least. *A*
Me and Lizzy ended up in second place when we had the competition! x3 it was soo much fun!


I'm still a bit sick now though.. dunno if it's partly the weather O: thunder and lighting three days in a row.. wow xD


Today's Kouki Mr.Sunshine. (: he gives me joy.. and joyness *sings on charlie the unicorn*





































So beautiful~


Goodnight.

SINDRA

I love it so much.

but not even vistlip is enough right now.
and that hasn't happened for a long time.

zooooommmgggg tired

that's me. tired.

yes.

but I like it. 

now I'll go watch an episode of bones with me daddy.

then sleeep.

I'll probably fall asleep in the couch

but anyway~

I've been looking through Vivid pictures.. and comments.. 

cheers me up (: sweethearts.

Shin melts my heart.

おやすみ～