Why I want to go to Japan..?

this.

and this.

and this.

"I was frantically looking for something 

it's okay to stumble, so go forward 
I know it's foolish, I just run on without regret 

the only one I can trust is myself, I didn't need friends 
the fangs I bared at anything and everything 
sexual stuff in adolescence is delicate and fleeting 

I wanna be strong, give me the strength to live on my own 
honestly, I was just scared of betrayal 

I knew that nothing would change if I kept running away 
but I couldn't change myself. 

the loneliness I prided myself on 
was a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams 
the self assertion I prided myself on called 'RIOT' 
there was no freedom, nothing beyond this light. 

Teenage Bluely Days 
I was drowning in each rough new day 
before I knew it I was shouldering such loneliness 

It was hard. To be honest, 
I really didn't want to be on my own. 

Since always pretending to be strong makes one forget one's true face 

It's important to occassionally loosen up and rely on others 

hurt... 

Then you want to cry, face the great big sky 
and scream out in a loud voice 
that you want to forget yourself, so you can keep being who you are. 

the encouraging voices of my father, my mother, and my friends 
spurred on, even one so weak as myself, they gave me light 

the loneliness and pain of my youth that I prided myself on 
were a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams 
If there's freedom to be had in that clear blue sky 

I wouldn't care if these wings I'm so proud of were torn off 
I began running, frantically aiming for the sky 

I spread my wings and flew away, and the spot where I fell 
was 'freedom'. 

with a wonderful family, and wonderful friends 
these were the best days of my life, If I'm reborn 

let's meet again..."

and this.

ask me again.