it's okay to stumble, so go forward I know it's foolish, I just run on without regret
the only one I can trust is myself, I didn't need friends the fangs I bared at anything and everything sexual stuff in adolescence is delicate and fleeting
I wanna be strong, give me the strength to live on my own honestly, I was just scared of betrayal
I knew that nothing would change if I kept running away but I couldn't change myself.
the loneliness I prided myself on was a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams the self assertion I prided myself on called 'RIOT' there was no freedom, nothing beyond this light.
Teenage Bluely Days I was drowning in each rough new day before I knew it I was shouldering such loneliness
It was hard. To be honest, I really didn't want to be on my own.
Since always pretending to be strong makes one forget one's true face
It's important to occassionally loosen up and rely on others
hurt...
Then you want to cry, face the great big sky and scream out in a loud voice that you want to forget yourself, so you can keep being who you are.
the encouraging voices of my father, my mother, and my friends spurred on, even one so weak as myself, they gave me light
the loneliness and pain of my youth that I prided myself on were a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams If there's freedom to be had in that clear blue sky
I wouldn't care if these wings I'm so proud of were torn off I began running, frantically aiming for the sky
I spread my wings and flew away, and the spot where I fell was 'freedom'.
with a wonderful family, and wonderful friends these were the best days of my life, If I'm reborn
I played Left4Dead 2 for the first time on xbox yesterday. XD I sucked. kinda.
but I actually cured my phobia of the tanks a little bit.. the new ones isn't as ugly as they are in the first game.. and it wasn't as scary as on the computer xD
Shower, get ready and then off to a meeting.
I'll miss Lost Ash on Nico nico T__T uhu
Alice Nine was love yesterday. It was Saga's birthday so they played around with him alot.. poor little one hahah
and it was Saga and Nao, the perfect totally-get-out-of-hand-crazy duo, those two.
Woke up around 06.30 by Nellie's usual waking up-procedure: she lying down on my stomach and stroking her head in my face. xD
Me and sister then went to the hospital to get our chest x-rays for the paperworkz.. we had scheduled times so it was no problems at all, it took ten minutes then we were outside again, seriously. So nice, we barely had time to sit down in the waiting area before they called our names haha. ^^ so it went well.. and hopefully we get the papers soon *A*
Tonight we will fill in the rest of what we can do with all the forms and information-papers.
IT'S SO EXITING!! AAAHHH!!!
Soon we have to send in the papers... sooon soooon!
Me and sister discussed what the first thing we're going to do when we arrive..
and I, without any doubt "Buy a CC Lemon!!!! TAT"
hahah. Totally.
That's at least after I've danced around like a maniac and tried to hug the ground, the building, everything. XD
maybe they'll throw me out again even before I get out from the airport.
nah XD
After the hospital we went and picked up our new passports.. OMG I LOOK OLD!!! Like.. really old. What the hell XDD
Now we're at mom's place.. chillin'
We're both beginning to feel sick so we're taking it easy..
Vistlip time<3
They have been haning around a park today.. They've all uploaded nice pictures.. ^-^ It's so beautiful.
Tohya captured the love of pigeons. :')
Ruisu is like.. like..like. a warm wind smelling like flowers.
that's what he is.
Tomo is pure love. TwT
Even though I'm not a fan of the hat at all XD stop it with the haaat!
Monolith's Ryu and Lycaon's Yuuki
Ryu uploaded this just now, haha~
"Yu-chan and Yu-chan
you jealous? You jealous? Uhihihihi"
xDD
I'm shocked Ryu is that small.. I mean.. Yuuki is TINY.. and he's not much taller XDD aww.
going to bed..
then going to mom's place tomorrow morning with Nellie to look after the cats /dead face
then going back to my dad's on the evening /dead face
then on friday it's time for the chest x-ray... I'm nervous :| ooohoho.. partially because I'm getting a cold.. NOOO! but it should be okay right?
Budokan is HUGE, not only.. as an arena.... but.. as a step in a band's development.
how on earth did they manage to go this far in this short time? I was soo proud of Alice Nine just a few months ago when they played there.. O: the boys had worked so hard to get there and now finally a dream came true.
Yes, I do think Vivid are amazingly talented.. and Shin's voice melts ice..
and Reno is a kickass guitarist.. they are really good.
BUT WHAT WAAIIIT! how is it even possible?
HUGE..... it's huge!!
Budokan..... haha, it's going to take time for me to process this xD
probably had some weird dream that I can't remember.. and I've been watching discovery channel all morning and they show commercial on a program they'll show this thursday about the earthquake..
like
every fifteen minutes I get stabbed in the heart yay.
and this past weeks I've been really sloppy with taking time and listen to music.
Seriously, music is like oxygen to me. I can't breathe without it.
I'm going my mom's place soon, taking the puppy with me and I'll stay to wednesday or something.
My noodles are ready~
Born's Demons seem really good~
even though Ryoga looks ridiculous in his fake teeth, haha. ^^
